Empty, like a clear tall glass
I see none of me, none of who I am.
Empty, like an unfilled vase
nothing in it, no depth, no anything
Empty, like the dry pages of an unwritten book
Filled with nothing but dust on each flip
Empty, like a bed with no sheets nor pillows
nothing to cover nor beauty to appeal
Empty, nothing but a broken heart
whose mind has no thoughts nor ideals
Empty, like a wide oasis with nothing
In the area to captivate its visitors
Empty, like a heart broken by innocence
no room for love and emotions, no anger or angst
As empty as a spacious room, nothing to be seen,
nothing to be heard, and Nothing to be found
Friday, September 27, 2013
Thursday, September 26, 2013
ISOLATION
Dear Friend,
I cannot even imagine how you must feel right now. I know that you might think that we will be seeing you in a different light just because of this. You might be feeling so vulnerable right now to the point where you look down on yourself. You feel ashamed, embarrassed, afraid...shame, which is why I am asking you to Stop. Don't. Though I can't tell you how you should feel, It is your emotions, but I just want you to know that you are not in this alone, there are so many people around you who just wants to let you know that you are loved and not judged. You are cherished and not abandoned. You are worthy and not worthless. No form or amount of any mistake will be a stain of hatred, mistakes never dictates your fate. No situation in the whole world combined will ever lessen the love that I have for you. I love you and I will always love you. When I accepted you for who you are, it is your whole being, your whole self. No judgement, no condemnation, just pure love.
Sometimes, we do not know where to go or what to do when faced in an unlawful circumstance. Like everything is going wrong and unplanned. This happens, to the best and worse of us--and our immediate response? Isolation. We isolate ourselves because we do not want to see anybody, hear anybody or interact with anybody. We feel sad. We feel ashamed. We fear rejection, so instead of waiting to be rejected, we isolate ourselves. We can't help it, it is our defense mechanism, of course this is wrong. We must not reject anything because we are part of something far more greater and bigger--God's plan. Why would we allow something to stop us from receiving the overflowing grace and love of God just because of fear? this is satan's technique to get us, he injects fear to fool us that God will never forgive us and that God will reject us. Here's a newsflash for everyone. GOD WILL NEVER REJECT US. When we talk about unconditional love, it only means that HE loves us despite AND because of our flaws, so if God accepts every single part of who we are, why can't we do that for one another? Something to think about and consider, right? This letter is intended for everyone out there who is isolating themselves because of fear. Whatever you may be going through or whatever you may be feeling; remember that you are never alone :)
I know that this gift might be something unexpected, but most of the time, unexpected gifts are the best kinds of gift, it may not be the one that we are expecting, but it does not mean that it isn't for the best. Friend, for some reason, God has made our paths cross; not because it was an accident but because it is meant to be, probably HE thought that in times like these, He would ask me to encourage you and remind you of the love that HE has for us all. Please dear Friends, do not allow satan to win you over, to slowly creep into your minds and make you believe that you two are damned in hell, you belong with our Heavenly Father, you are my siblings in Christ and I will always love you for that, more importantly, God loves you for that. When we talk about unconditional love; it does not mean that GOD loves us despite our sins and short comings, He loves us because of it. True children of God knows better than to judge others because we are all equal, I am not and will never judge you. Please know and remember that. I want you to know that I will always be on your side and that I will always, always ALWAYS be here for you whenever you need me. Again, stop isolating yourself, whatever it is you are going through, I just want to remind you that you do not have to go through it alone, you have me, you have God. Please do not push yourself far away from me or from Him because you are scared or ashamed. Shame and fear are two of the many tools that satan can use against you and me. Do not allow him to hold you captive in this, isolation is a form of rejection. --rejection is not from God. Set yourself free my friend and rise up to feel God's loving victory.
It honestly pains me to have the thought of you feeling unwanted, feeling condemned and feeling defeated. It's time for you to rise up...and please remember that when you choose to finally stand, I'll be here, I'll crouch down with you and help you get on your feet again so we can win this battle together. Friend, you do not have to do this alone.
I love you...but GOD LOVES YOU MORE.
Always here,
A Friend :)
I cannot even imagine how you must feel right now. I know that you might think that we will be seeing you in a different light just because of this. You might be feeling so vulnerable right now to the point where you look down on yourself. You feel ashamed, embarrassed, afraid...shame, which is why I am asking you to Stop. Don't. Though I can't tell you how you should feel, It is your emotions, but I just want you to know that you are not in this alone, there are so many people around you who just wants to let you know that you are loved and not judged. You are cherished and not abandoned. You are worthy and not worthless. No form or amount of any mistake will be a stain of hatred, mistakes never dictates your fate. No situation in the whole world combined will ever lessen the love that I have for you. I love you and I will always love you. When I accepted you for who you are, it is your whole being, your whole self. No judgement, no condemnation, just pure love.
Sometimes, we do not know where to go or what to do when faced in an unlawful circumstance. Like everything is going wrong and unplanned. This happens, to the best and worse of us--and our immediate response? Isolation. We isolate ourselves because we do not want to see anybody, hear anybody or interact with anybody. We feel sad. We feel ashamed. We fear rejection, so instead of waiting to be rejected, we isolate ourselves. We can't help it, it is our defense mechanism, of course this is wrong. We must not reject anything because we are part of something far more greater and bigger--God's plan. Why would we allow something to stop us from receiving the overflowing grace and love of God just because of fear? this is satan's technique to get us, he injects fear to fool us that God will never forgive us and that God will reject us. Here's a newsflash for everyone. GOD WILL NEVER REJECT US. When we talk about unconditional love, it only means that HE loves us despite AND because of our flaws, so if God accepts every single part of who we are, why can't we do that for one another? Something to think about and consider, right? This letter is intended for everyone out there who is isolating themselves because of fear. Whatever you may be going through or whatever you may be feeling; remember that you are never alone :)
I know that this gift might be something unexpected, but most of the time, unexpected gifts are the best kinds of gift, it may not be the one that we are expecting, but it does not mean that it isn't for the best. Friend, for some reason, God has made our paths cross; not because it was an accident but because it is meant to be, probably HE thought that in times like these, He would ask me to encourage you and remind you of the love that HE has for us all. Please dear Friends, do not allow satan to win you over, to slowly creep into your minds and make you believe that you two are damned in hell, you belong with our Heavenly Father, you are my siblings in Christ and I will always love you for that, more importantly, God loves you for that. When we talk about unconditional love; it does not mean that GOD loves us despite our sins and short comings, He loves us because of it. True children of God knows better than to judge others because we are all equal, I am not and will never judge you. Please know and remember that. I want you to know that I will always be on your side and that I will always, always ALWAYS be here for you whenever you need me. Again, stop isolating yourself, whatever it is you are going through, I just want to remind you that you do not have to go through it alone, you have me, you have God. Please do not push yourself far away from me or from Him because you are scared or ashamed. Shame and fear are two of the many tools that satan can use against you and me. Do not allow him to hold you captive in this, isolation is a form of rejection. --rejection is not from God. Set yourself free my friend and rise up to feel God's loving victory.
It honestly pains me to have the thought of you feeling unwanted, feeling condemned and feeling defeated. It's time for you to rise up...and please remember that when you choose to finally stand, I'll be here, I'll crouch down with you and help you get on your feet again so we can win this battle together. Friend, you do not have to do this alone.
I love you...but GOD LOVES YOU MORE.
Always here,
A Friend :)
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Still Waters
All I want is to be in still waters
Lying in your arms.
So peaceful and free
With you, Im free to be me
Day by day, I see your light
But I tend to leave and go to the blind side
Then I'd know that it's something I'd regret
I just will I can finally forget
The past is there, It can never be faded
All I want is to be in still waters
Lying in your arms.
So peaceful and free
With you, Im free to be me
Day by day, I see your light
But I tend to leave and go to the blind side
Then I'd know that it's something I'd regret
I just will I can finally forget
The past is there, It can never be faded
I don't know why I suddenly ended
Though you wont let go,
You're my strength through it all
One day I know I'll be there again
In the same moment where I can begin again
Back to the days where I can just lay still
In all serenity, with no voids in my heart to fill
*inspired by Psalm 23:2
*inspired by Psalm 23:2
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Three Months
"Till the next sunrise?"
"I promise."
It was the night of September, Macy and Tyler were still in the park, talking. No noise, no running around, no touching, no kissing, just pure mind intimacy. They were always like that. They would spend hours and hours, just talking about the random things in life. From the sounds of those dry brown leaves that has fallen from the tree across their house to the white dog playfully chasing its tail in the afternoon. Anything. Everything is a topic for discussion for them. No judgments, no assumptions, just pure opinions.
As Tyler was sitting on that old rusty swing and Macy on the other side, he began to notice Macy's vague expression through her eyes.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked Macy
"Nothing." she blankly responded
"No, really. What is it?" he asked her again
"Life." she answered in a firm tone
This caught him off guard. He was puzzled in why Macy suddenly thought of life. He playfully responded
"and what about it?"
"It's short." Macy answered. Tyler was surprised with the strength in her voice. He couldn't imagine himself saying these words. Having these words come out from his mouth.
The minute that these two words left Macy's mouth, a pinch of agony was reflected through Tyler's face. They both knew that life was indeed short. Uneasy, Complicated and Short. For them these were facts. Something that they both had to accept. Both fell silent. They could hear the drop of dew from the highest leaf on the Acacia tree down to the floor.
For a moment, these two didn't speak. They were staring blankly as the warmth of the night took it's course. In their own way, they both understood what each of them were feeling just by the release of air through their mouths. Tyler knew exactly what Macy was trying to say, he will miss her. Her silent arguments and random statements that he always considered as facts. He will miss the crinkle of her nose at each lame joke her gave out. He will miss the sound of her laugh. The sweetness of her voice. The depth in her light brown eyes. The dimple at the corner of her mouth that would only appear whenever she smiles. He will miss everything about her. Everything. He saw no reason why he would not savor the last few days he had with her. He doesn't know when it will happen, but he didn't care. Neither did Macy. She never wanted to know when or how it can happen. She didn't ask the doctor what could be done, what should be done, and neither did he. All they know is that, they have three months. Three months to make things right. Three months to be with each other. Three months to be together. They didn't care what other people thought when they see them together in the park. Talking. Chatting. Laughing. They wanted to spend as much time as they can with each other.
Not a day goes by with Tyler thinking what his day would be without Macy. How the park would feel like without her. How the park would look like without her. How the park would be without her. In their minds, the park, this park is and was theirs.
Macy would often think about the first time they met, in that red sand box by the tree and near the long red slide, they were both in third grade when Macy fell on her knees as she was trying to catch that purple butterfly.Tyler was the one who helped her up and caught the butterfly for her. He pulled her up, got the empty jar that we was holding, and caught the purple butterfly. Since then, the two were inseparable. They shared an understanding that only they understand. Their friends asks questions, and they'd always answer, they're destined friends. Two souls who happen to be at the same place, at the same time, who shared the same thoughts. Days would come when these two would have their heated discussions that would end up badly but they'd act as if nothing happened the next day--and one of them would always accept defeat.
The moment they found out that they only had three months, Tyler, for the first time, held Macy's hand and she responded with a smile. This was the most that these two got physically intimate. Nothing further.
They knew that their days in the park together will have to end. They knew that, they understood that, but surprisingly, they never talked about that.
The cool breeze if dawn began blowing the crisps of the brown fallen leaves from the tree as the sun began to stop itself from hiding. It was again, another morning. They now sat on their mat to watch the magnificence of another sun rise.
"Life is short" Tyler firmly said. As if now, accepting defeat to Macy's statement the night before.
She didn't respond. She closed her eyes to feel that calmness of the morning breeze. She then felt Tyler's hand slowing intertwining to hers as he leaned his back on the big rock behind them. Macy felt a certain peace with her hand held in Tyler's palm, she then leaned on his chest to hear his heart beating. She felt it beating faster as she placed her head on his chest. Faster. Harder. She knew that this was it. Though she didn't want to admit it, but she knew that it was today. At each moment, she could feel the beating slowing down. beating slower. Descending. Fading. It was time. She looked at him, one last time, she could see it through his blue eyes. It was time. She nodded and smirked, assuring him that she'll be okay. He smiled in peace. He kept his promise and took his last breath.
In the morning of September 9, Tyler died from stage 4 Lung cancer. Peacefully and Happily and in the arms of the person he loved the most. In the arms of the one and only person who loves, understands and knows him. He died in the sight of Macy. His soul mate.
Macy felt the tears unwillingly flowing from her eyes and down to her cheeks. She felt like a part of her was ripped from her chest, there was a part of her that faded. A part of her was gone. Tyler was gone, but she was happy because he got what he wanted. She was happy because even in his last breath, he was happy. She was happy because He kept his promise.
A month after, she went back in the park, in their park. She sat in the same swing where Tyler last sat on. She wanted to feel him, one last time before she left for Chicago.
"Bye Tyler . . . " she whispered to herself and as she was sitting there, she felt a sudden comfort, the kind of comfort that she'd only felt whenever she was with Tyler. There was a blinding glow from the reflection of a piece of silver candy wrapper by the tree on her left. As she glanced towards the direction of the flashing light, tears started flowing down her cheek because right there, just by the tree where Tyler and Macy played, talked, fought, discussed and met; there it was, joyfully flying and peacefully floating was a vibrant and delicate . . . purple butterfly.
"I promise."
It was the night of September, Macy and Tyler were still in the park, talking. No noise, no running around, no touching, no kissing, just pure mind intimacy. They were always like that. They would spend hours and hours, just talking about the random things in life. From the sounds of those dry brown leaves that has fallen from the tree across their house to the white dog playfully chasing its tail in the afternoon. Anything. Everything is a topic for discussion for them. No judgments, no assumptions, just pure opinions.
As Tyler was sitting on that old rusty swing and Macy on the other side, he began to notice Macy's vague expression through her eyes.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked Macy
"Nothing." she blankly responded
"No, really. What is it?" he asked her again
"Life." she answered in a firm tone
This caught him off guard. He was puzzled in why Macy suddenly thought of life. He playfully responded
"and what about it?"
"It's short." Macy answered. Tyler was surprised with the strength in her voice. He couldn't imagine himself saying these words. Having these words come out from his mouth.
The minute that these two words left Macy's mouth, a pinch of agony was reflected through Tyler's face. They both knew that life was indeed short. Uneasy, Complicated and Short. For them these were facts. Something that they both had to accept. Both fell silent. They could hear the drop of dew from the highest leaf on the Acacia tree down to the floor.
For a moment, these two didn't speak. They were staring blankly as the warmth of the night took it's course. In their own way, they both understood what each of them were feeling just by the release of air through their mouths. Tyler knew exactly what Macy was trying to say, he will miss her. Her silent arguments and random statements that he always considered as facts. He will miss the crinkle of her nose at each lame joke her gave out. He will miss the sound of her laugh. The sweetness of her voice. The depth in her light brown eyes. The dimple at the corner of her mouth that would only appear whenever she smiles. He will miss everything about her. Everything. He saw no reason why he would not savor the last few days he had with her. He doesn't know when it will happen, but he didn't care. Neither did Macy. She never wanted to know when or how it can happen. She didn't ask the doctor what could be done, what should be done, and neither did he. All they know is that, they have three months. Three months to make things right. Three months to be with each other. Three months to be together. They didn't care what other people thought when they see them together in the park. Talking. Chatting. Laughing. They wanted to spend as much time as they can with each other.
Not a day goes by with Tyler thinking what his day would be without Macy. How the park would feel like without her. How the park would look like without her. How the park would be without her. In their minds, the park, this park is and was theirs.
Macy would often think about the first time they met, in that red sand box by the tree and near the long red slide, they were both in third grade when Macy fell on her knees as she was trying to catch that purple butterfly.Tyler was the one who helped her up and caught the butterfly for her. He pulled her up, got the empty jar that we was holding, and caught the purple butterfly. Since then, the two were inseparable. They shared an understanding that only they understand. Their friends asks questions, and they'd always answer, they're destined friends. Two souls who happen to be at the same place, at the same time, who shared the same thoughts. Days would come when these two would have their heated discussions that would end up badly but they'd act as if nothing happened the next day--and one of them would always accept defeat.
The moment they found out that they only had three months, Tyler, for the first time, held Macy's hand and she responded with a smile. This was the most that these two got physically intimate. Nothing further.
They knew that their days in the park together will have to end. They knew that, they understood that, but surprisingly, they never talked about that.
The cool breeze if dawn began blowing the crisps of the brown fallen leaves from the tree as the sun began to stop itself from hiding. It was again, another morning. They now sat on their mat to watch the magnificence of another sun rise.
"Life is short" Tyler firmly said. As if now, accepting defeat to Macy's statement the night before.
She didn't respond. She closed her eyes to feel that calmness of the morning breeze. She then felt Tyler's hand slowing intertwining to hers as he leaned his back on the big rock behind them. Macy felt a certain peace with her hand held in Tyler's palm, she then leaned on his chest to hear his heart beating. She felt it beating faster as she placed her head on his chest. Faster. Harder. She knew that this was it. Though she didn't want to admit it, but she knew that it was today. At each moment, she could feel the beating slowing down. beating slower. Descending. Fading. It was time. She looked at him, one last time, she could see it through his blue eyes. It was time. She nodded and smirked, assuring him that she'll be okay. He smiled in peace. He kept his promise and took his last breath.
In the morning of September 9, Tyler died from stage 4 Lung cancer. Peacefully and Happily and in the arms of the person he loved the most. In the arms of the one and only person who loves, understands and knows him. He died in the sight of Macy. His soul mate.
Macy felt the tears unwillingly flowing from her eyes and down to her cheeks. She felt like a part of her was ripped from her chest, there was a part of her that faded. A part of her was gone. Tyler was gone, but she was happy because he got what he wanted. She was happy because even in his last breath, he was happy. She was happy because He kept his promise.
A month after, she went back in the park, in their park. She sat in the same swing where Tyler last sat on. She wanted to feel him, one last time before she left for Chicago.
"Bye Tyler . . . " she whispered to herself and as she was sitting there, she felt a sudden comfort, the kind of comfort that she'd only felt whenever she was with Tyler. There was a blinding glow from the reflection of a piece of silver candy wrapper by the tree on her left. As she glanced towards the direction of the flashing light, tears started flowing down her cheek because right there, just by the tree where Tyler and Macy played, talked, fought, discussed and met; there it was, joyfully flying and peacefully floating was a vibrant and delicate . . . purple butterfly.
Monday, September 2, 2013
More Than These
In the beauty and the silence
In peace and serenity
In good and joyful moments
I provide all these
Through comfort and assurance
Protection comes from me,
All I ask is one thing,
Do you love me more than these?
Through the pain and sorrow
I will be with you
Through all trials and testings
I'm faithful to you
But when it gets too deep
and all are raging seas
I just have this question,
Will you love me after these?
My love will never fade cause
You are made from me
My hand will be beside you
Open your eyes and see
In the dark and in the deepest deserts
You'll remain in me
Trust me cause I won't let go
I love you more than these.
Remember you are with me
Don't worry and be still
Hear the whispers of my voice
I will always love you more than these.
inspired by:
“Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” -John 21:15b
In peace and serenity
In good and joyful moments
I provide all these
Through comfort and assurance
Protection comes from me,
All I ask is one thing,
Do you love me more than these?
Through the pain and sorrow
I will be with you
Through all trials and testings
I'm faithful to you
But when it gets too deep
and all are raging seas
I just have this question,
Will you love me after these?
My love will never fade cause
You are made from me
My hand will be beside you
Open your eyes and see
In the dark and in the deepest deserts
You'll remain in me
Trust me cause I won't let go
I love you more than these.
Remember you are with me
Don't worry and be still
Hear the whispers of my voice
I will always love you more than these.
inspired by:
“Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” -John 21:15b
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Just for today
Just for today, All I ask is silence
To hear Your voice in this boisterous whispers
Just for today, All I ask is comfort
To cry beneath the sheets buried in 6 feet deep
Just for today, All I ask is assurance
To know that all is well in the busyness of idle
Just for today, All I ask is laughter
To smile from cheek to cheek at the end of the riddle
Just for today, All I ask is peace
To have serenity in this unending noise of streets
Just for today, All I ask is rest
To close my eyes and know that I can sleep
Just for today, All I ask is mercy
To forgive and be forget all that has happened
Just for today, All I ask is grace
To be favored not by many but have and unexpected end
Just for today, All I ask is support
To not be standing alone in the middle of a crowd
Just for today, All I ask is love
To have all these things, knowing that in fear, I haven't drowned
To hear Your voice in this boisterous whispers
Just for today, All I ask is comfort
To cry beneath the sheets buried in 6 feet deep
Just for today, All I ask is assurance
To know that all is well in the busyness of idle
Just for today, All I ask is laughter
To smile from cheek to cheek at the end of the riddle
Just for today, All I ask is peace
To have serenity in this unending noise of streets
Just for today, All I ask is rest
To close my eyes and know that I can sleep
Just for today, All I ask is mercy
To forgive and be forget all that has happened
Just for today, All I ask is grace
To be favored not by many but have and unexpected end
Just for today, All I ask is support
To not be standing alone in the middle of a crowd
Just for today, All I ask is love
To have all these things, knowing that in fear, I haven't drowned
Heaven
There may be days where I can't understand
Why are these things are happening.
Filled with unexpected beginnings
But never a proper ending.
My heart will wait, My heart won't wander
I will stand still in the arms of my Father
I never want to move till Your time comes
Till I hear You say Yes through the Heavenly realms
I will keep in heart every word You say
I won't give up because in You I long to stay
Though I may shiver in the vast heat of fire
I will hold on to the Hand of the Most High
Days will come when all I do is ask,
Please stay with me cause this season won't last
My hand, my head and my whole heart is Yours
I never want to leave Heaven's open doors
All I want is to stay in Your presence
To dwell in Your love, so perfect and true
I say goodbye to this world and leaving all the pain
Because I know that in Heaven, Your love and presence reigns
I look forward to the day when I will finally see
The beauty and radiance of my Father in Majesty.
To see the face, the eyes and the smile of my King
That moment where in awe my whole being will worship and sing.
Why are these things are happening.
Filled with unexpected beginnings
But never a proper ending.
My heart will wait, My heart won't wander
I will stand still in the arms of my Father
I never want to move till Your time comes
Till I hear You say Yes through the Heavenly realms
I will keep in heart every word You say
I won't give up because in You I long to stay
Though I may shiver in the vast heat of fire
I will hold on to the Hand of the Most High
Days will come when all I do is ask,
Please stay with me cause this season won't last
My hand, my head and my whole heart is Yours
I never want to leave Heaven's open doors
All I want is to stay in Your presence
To dwell in Your love, so perfect and true
I say goodbye to this world and leaving all the pain
Because I know that in Heaven, Your love and presence reigns
I look forward to the day when I will finally see
The beauty and radiance of my Father in Majesty.
To see the face, the eyes and the smile of my King
That moment where in awe my whole being will worship and sing.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
LIGHT
From this new beginning, here I come
I know that it is YOUR will to be done
Holding back all within me
For it is YOU who I long to see
Better days will come my way
Because I know YOU have the final say
Though I know I am not perfect
You assure me that with YOU, there are no regrets
Someday I hope to be that eagle
To soar so high only in YOUR wind
I know right now, I'm far from that
But YOU will make a way to fill my gap
My true identity is all in You
And I hope one day, I'll see it too
All I want is to give You glory
For You,Oh Lord are very worthy
My life begins when I am dead
Because I know YOU live and lead
My hope is sure and my future is bright
For YOU Lord JESUS are my ONE and true LIGHT
Saturday, August 10, 2013
YOUR fire
standing here, still and quiet
I'm admiring our calm silence
It speaks louder than words
Like nothing is left unheard
I'm not gonna ask
Nor am I going to start a task
You and me, that's all I need
To stand before You, is enough for me to seek
Though I know I'm unworthy
I don't deserve the love you have for me
But here I am, in Your presnece
You choose to love me till my very essance
All I do is hurt You deeply
But each time I ask, You always forgive me
What ever did I do to derserve this?
You never fail to give me the sweetest kiss
It was never my intention to bring You pain
I never want to see you cry like a stormy rain
But every time You do, You still care
It is my hurt and confusion that You can't bear
I know my mistakes, I know I shouldn't do it
And each time I ask, You get me through it
The love that I have is not close to Yours
But You still see my love like an unbeatable force
How I wish I could be worthy of You
Even if I know that there's nothing I could do
I am a sinner, forever a thorn in Your chest
But still You call me, and bless me with my needed rest
How can You love me?
How can You ever be good to me?
From the beginning of time that's what You've been saying
Your love for me is always unfailing
I cannot do anything to give You what You deserve
All I give is my heart's desire, which is to serve
To serve You alone is my only desire
My life's goal is to everyday be baptized by YOUR FIRE
I'm admiring our calm silence
It speaks louder than words
Like nothing is left unheard
I'm not gonna ask
Nor am I going to start a task
You and me, that's all I need
To stand before You, is enough for me to seek
Though I know I'm unworthy
I don't deserve the love you have for me
But here I am, in Your presnece
You choose to love me till my very essance
All I do is hurt You deeply
But each time I ask, You always forgive me
What ever did I do to derserve this?
You never fail to give me the sweetest kiss
It was never my intention to bring You pain
I never want to see you cry like a stormy rain
But every time You do, You still care
It is my hurt and confusion that You can't bear
I know my mistakes, I know I shouldn't do it
And each time I ask, You get me through it
The love that I have is not close to Yours
But You still see my love like an unbeatable force
How I wish I could be worthy of You
Even if I know that there's nothing I could do
I am a sinner, forever a thorn in Your chest
But still You call me, and bless me with my needed rest
How can You love me?
How can You ever be good to me?
From the beginning of time that's what You've been saying
Your love for me is always unfailing
I cannot do anything to give You what You deserve
All I give is my heart's desire, which is to serve
To serve You alone is my only desire
My life's goal is to everyday be baptized by YOUR FIRE
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Follow
Wherever You bring me I promise to follow
I will no longer contradict because this is what You allow
I believe and trust You dear Almighty Father
For You are all-knowing and unlike any other
Everything You have brought upon, I know You have Your reasons
Because You have gone before me and have blessed every action
I will no longer question or even ask why this is so
Because I trust You and I know that this is Your wonderful window
This is where You have brought, placed and blessed me
And I believe that this is really where I am supposed to be
Nothing can replace how You have made me feel,
its something that I cannot explain and it sometimes seems to be too good to be real
I will follow You dear Father wherever You may go
Because this is Your word and You said that it is so
You are the greatest, the ultimate and the only Mighty God
And in Your presence my heart will always be happy and glad
Thank You Father God for bringing me in this exact moment and place
For my heart is filled with so much love from You that no one can ever erase
This is something I've always imagined doing and because of You it is possible
You are truly amazing Father God, with You everything else seems to be achievable
Just For A Moment
Just for a moment, I forgot all my insecurities
My heart was suddenly filled with all these possibilities
Just for a moment dear God, I felt like I was on high
I felt like I was floating on a cool and comfy fire
Just for a moment dear Father, every pain was somehow gone
My worries were replaced by Your love and unbeatable fun
Just for a moment everything felt so perfect
Like there wasn't a moment that I feared or regret
Just for a moment Father God, it felt like Heaven
To worship You with such ease and feel Your mighty presence
Just for that short moment, my mind suddenly went blank
Cause I did not even think and I was no longer this rusty boat that once sank
Just for a moment Father, I felt so new and alive
I felt like I received Your best and the most wonderful high five
Just for a moment Father God, You made me feel like I was somehow worthy
Worthy enough to be a servant to You who is the true Almighty
Just for a moment Father God, You gave me a taste of what it is like to be in Heaven
You gave me the will to serve you more in absolutely everything that I can
Thank You Father God for making me feel You are true and holy in presence
Because just for that moment, I was completely renewed and uplifted till the very core of my essence
NEVER LACK
There are certain events that has resulted to confusion
Unsure of what to do, keep looking for a certain reason
But then God sends a reminder that He has a purpose for everything
That all these questions and confusion will soon be nothing
The mind begins to wonder if this is just another attempt of evil
To feed doubts and fears to the mind while the heart remains devoted and still
The fall of faith is what the enemy aims to do
But because of God's mighty presence evil's plan will NEVER push through
Nothing can ever defeat the power of God Almighty
No matter how much pain or weary a heart happen to be
God will never fade, God will never go away,
God will always reign, God will always and forever remain
These questions that are presented will soon be answered in time
In God's perfect moment where He will provide that perfect rhythm and rhyme
For now, His presence is felt and questions and doubts are beginning to lessen
God has spoken and reassured that He is always there to listen
Through His different instruments, His message was received
Now all we must do is to continue to worship and believe
In times of short comings and doubts, God will always guide us straight back
Because He has given a certain calling to each and His presence will never lack
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Explaining the purpose of this blog
New blog with new thoughts. I know that I have handled a LOT of blogs already. But this blog is different. It will be leaning more on more of the creative side. As in I'll be posting a few of my short stories. I have a lot, actually, but I haven't had the guts to post any of my babies yet. Until now...
I am currently taking up this class that made me realize how much of a coward I was because I have NEVER posted my short stories yet, why? because I am kind of concerned of what people might say. But you know what, I just learned from one of my professors that, it should not matter, literature does not have to make sense, it does not need morals all the time, because the soul purpose of literature is...enjoyment. Though, I will NOT be posting anything erotic, cause that is honestly NOT my style, never have been and never will be. It defeats the meaning of literature.
Anyway, this first post on this blog will be more of my creative output, this post will be my first and last "interaction" on this blog, the next post will all be short-stories, excerpts, poems or lyrics. This blog is my creative output. :)
"Better write for yourself and have no public than write for the public and have no self" -Cyril Connolly
Later,
Koko
I am currently taking up this class that made me realize how much of a coward I was because I have NEVER posted my short stories yet, why? because I am kind of concerned of what people might say. But you know what, I just learned from one of my professors that, it should not matter, literature does not have to make sense, it does not need morals all the time, because the soul purpose of literature is...enjoyment. Though, I will NOT be posting anything erotic, cause that is honestly NOT my style, never have been and never will be. It defeats the meaning of literature.
Anyway, this first post on this blog will be more of my creative output, this post will be my first and last "interaction" on this blog, the next post will all be short-stories, excerpts, poems or lyrics. This blog is my creative output. :)
"Better write for yourself and have no public than write for the public and have no self" -Cyril Connolly
Later,
Koko
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